This 3rd term is the most busiest and most stressed-inflicting one I’ve experienced. I mean, everyday I have classes and I have to travel from my house to APC which takes 2-3 hours from my day. Then, we still have to finish our float for this coming SoMA week. Because of the float, we have to stay until 8pm at school to do it and stay up late to finish projects and school works at home. Then … there’s also this problems with a group member.
I just pray that this stressful days would soon come to pass.
Lord, ikaw na ang bahala .. I’ll just do my best in everything
It felt so real.
So real that it made me sad when I woke up.
It was a dream but not just any dream. Probably the best I ever had so far. I wished for it to come true and have the time stop at that moment.
Though it’s still just a dream.
A dream that’s too far from reality. Still, deep inside I keep praying to God that someday it’ll happen.
That someday I’ll be able to see you again.
This one is very weird.
I was in a pool that has a few number of shrimps in it. I was told to gather all the shrimp.
Strangely, I could only get small shrimps. And more strangely, the shrimps are all orange which means they’re already cooked :)))
I complained that all the shrimps in my area are small. Then I decided to drain the pool so that I could picked up every shrimp :))
The end… xD
Last summer, I learned about the Middle Child Syndrome through our annual youth camp…
It was my first time to actually open up… I think God told me that that was the time I should let go. I’m glad that I was placed under the guidance of a faci (facilitator) who went through the same circumstances as me. She’s also the one who told me about this Middle Child Syndrome
Today I happen to search more about it… and I found out that it’s very common and it’s actually happening to me.
But I’m very grateful that God was and is always there for me. He guided me and made me not become someone I would regret to be forever.
I’m not saying that I got over it. Honestly, I’m still struggling with it and it’s painful. I still do everything and be an achiever just to be recognize and I hate it.
I hate that I have to do a lot of things just to be noticed. It’s not that they require me to but it’s just how I grew up. I feel like it’s the only way to get attention especially from my parents.
Right now, my Heavenly Father is the only one I’m hanging on to. I’m really glad that I was given the chance to get to know Him.
I hope and pray that a lot of people will know Him and His love.
Sorry, I just don’t know to whom I should talk to that’s why I’m rambling here :))
God Bless everyone!
Malapit na ang orientation and pasukan at ako’y kinakabahan >__<
I feel like a lot of things will change in me. How I dress, how I act and how I socialize. I’m really nervous and scared about these changes that might happen.
So, I pray to God that these changes would be for my best. I also pray for guidance in every situation and circumstances that I may face.
In Jesus’ name, amen.
-God Bless everyone!